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The Drama of Human Neuroses: When Every Little Thing Matters

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Aug 7, 2006

Playing Catch Up

Posted by Bella

Where did the time go already?

I'm not even about to discuss all that's happened over the past 348 days; who needs to re-live some of those moments? Not me. I've grown a lot as a result, met some amazing people, and have come away with some fantastic friends. Looking at it that way, it's not all bad, huh? Not all bad, no.

Needless to say, I'm a new person, in a new year, with new options ahead. Options are always good things. I mean, sometimes it feels like options are good things, and sometimes, I don't want the options. Why? Because then I'll have to make a decision, and decision-making is a difficult task...what if I make the wrong decision? What if I'm overlooking more decisions? What if this decision is irreversible? What if, what if, and what if...the list could go on.

But, the truth is, my options are here and well, I have to take them. Sometimes, when you don't even want to make decisions for yourself, life will do it for you. So looking at it from that perspective, you think, "Hey, I think I'd rather make the wrong decision here instead of allowing the Universe to do it for me." Although, frankly, I can't say I haven't sat around at times and waited for the Universe to do exactly that, you know? A new year, a new life, a new me. Wonder what the future holds.

Ooh, one of my favorite game shows is on, "What's My Line?" It's a smart, cool show. Hard to believe everyone on the show is no longer living...weird to watch shows from the days of yore and realize that wow, once upon a time these people existed and now they no longer do. That makes me think of my own life, the fragility of life and how you should live each day to the fullest. Life is so fleeting...it's weird. Oh, John Daly is not hosting tonight's show? Too bad! I like him. Arlene Francis is a smart cookie and has a fabulously sultry voice. Or had, I suppose. I was reading about the conspiracy theory surrounding the weird circumstances of Dorothy Killgallen's death around the JFK fiasco.


What a strange time that was and still a very scary one. Everything surrounding that time is still in the shadows...I also read that the Warren Commission Report is sealed until the year 2039. Did I get that right? Is it the Warren Commission Report? Yeah, here we go: Warren Commission Report

How ridiculous to do that! The public has a right to know!! And how can such a decision be upheld in the court of law? How many years is that...another 34? I'll be..omg, twice my own age! That's old. Which brings me full-circle..the fleeting nature of life. Live life to the fullest...every day. If only I could make the decision to do just that....

Aug 1, 2006

Joining the Ranks

Posted by Bella

After much hoopla, I've decided it's time I joined the ranks of worldwide bloggers who apparently have a great deal to say. I figured, I have a lot to say, so better sooner than later.

Looking at the beige blankness in front of me, I have to wonder why it is that I suddenly have little to share. I always have such a lot to say that a two-way conversation feels like an over-rated waste of time. Here's a thought: just be quiet and let me do the talking. How about a monologue, please? Just shut up and listen to me! To ME! But keep sitting there, pretending we are in a conversation, because as long as I have an audience, we can still call this a conversation. And when all else fails, you can get up and leave, thank you very much. Off with you. I don't need you here anymore.

You know what I mean? Do you ever feel like you just aren't being listened to or that no one heard what you just said? Why does everyone think what they have to say is more important than the thoughts of the person they're communicating with? Why must everyone have the last word in everything? If everyone wants to have the last word, how do you know when the conversation has ended? If someone has the final say and the other fails to respond for a few seconds, does that mean they gave up on having the final say? Is there a hard and fast rule on the last word? Hey, let's make up a rule right now! Let's call it the "8-second" rule. Anyone who forfeits their turn in a conversation in 8 or more seconds by saying nothing gives up on the last word.

Hah! Too late. You waited too long. I just had the last word.

The last word. It's all about the last word. That really ticks me off.